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Somewhat Of A Challenging Night

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Good Morning, World!!! I am tired as I didn’t sleep well last night. I didn’t sleep well last night due to the fact I was in so much pain that Junior ended up taking me to the hospital. Turns out that I have a kidney infection in the right kidney. I also have kidney stones as I had to have an MRI despite being pregnant. MRI’s, CT scans and X-Rays are not the best for pregnant people however the pain I was (and still am) experiencing could cause distress to the baby which causes harm. So, Junior and I with the help of the doctors weighed out the risk and thought it’s better to do the MRI. The MRI confirmed kidney stones.

Having kidney stones and a kidney infection is not fun especially since I am unable to take the pain meds doctors normally would prescribe. I am unable to take the pain meds due to being pregnant. On that note, I am able to take antibiotics for the kidney infection which is a good thing. The doctors put me on ten days worth of antibiotics and informed me to get in to see the OBGYN as soon as possible to make sure the kidney infection is clearing up and pain subsiding from the kidney stones.

I am just happy that Junior was able to take me to the emergency room and that what I am dealing with can be treated. I wish I was able to get some sleep but I am glad that the doctors were able to figure out what was wrong with me health wise.

I do not have much more to write about in the particular blog post. I do want to thank you, the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check In

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Good Evening, World from Seattle, Washington!!! This week has been quite a week for me emotion wise especially when it comes to depression and PTSD related to recent traumas that triggered past traumas. Traumas that were brought up in therapy which will be discussed later in this blog post.

Anyway, I went to work last Sunday and did crisis coverage. I continued to due crisis coverage on Sunday night despite vomiting most of the night. Thankfully, I only received one crisis call that just needed some resources. Due to vomiting most of Sunday night, I didn’t go to work on Monday. I did go to work on Tuesday and Wednesday. I struggled both days with PTSD related shit which sucked. I missed work on Thursday due to being in the emergency room most of Wednesday night.

I was in the emergency room of a local hospital most of Wednesday night due to self harm reasons which is why I missed work on Thursday. The self harm act was that of me punching a brick wall several times. Thankfully, I didn’t break anything. All I ended up with was a very bruised and swollen hand. I am also thankful that I was not suicidal in anyway and was able make a solid safety plan. I was also able to have a telephone check in with my therapist later in the afternoon for about a half an hour.

As Friday goes, I dissociated a lot due to reasons I’d rather not discuss but I did inform my therapist what happened via email and during our session on Friday. Therapy was fucking hard yesterday (Friday). We discussed what happened yesterday morning and why I was dissociating a lot. I also shared a lot of scary shit as far as trauma goes that I experienced as a child. Shit that has been brought up by the recent trauma of being raped. My therapist showed a lot of compassion and empathy. She also allowed me a lot of space to share that hard shit which meant our session lasted an hour and a half instead of an hour.

As far as today has gone, I haven’t done much to report. I did go to the U-District Farmers Market and got an awesome breakfast sandwich which I have been doing every Saturday for the last four or five Saturdays now. I think I am going to make it a weekly thing for me every Saturday since the U-District is every Saturday year round.

As far as what I have been for myself self care wise this week since it has been quite challenging has varied. I of course have been spending some time with my beloved cat, Billie. I have also been doing daily mindfulness meditation practices. In fact, last week, I have been doing at least four a day. I have been using the Calm App for at least two of the daily mindfulness meditation practices while other practices have been on my own or with others. I also have been doing a lot of art work. I have been doing various forms of art work such as coloring and diamond art. I also have been doing various types of crafts which include latch hook and cross stitching. I also have been doing a lot of reading books. Reading has been quite helpful with dealing with my PTSD.

That’s it for my weekly check in. Have a great weekend!!! Peace Out, World!!!

A Bit Of A Set Back

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Hello, World from Seattle in the middle of the night. I am tired as hell because I have been in the emergency room due to self harm. I punched a brick wall in the emergency stair well of my apartment building. Thankfully, nothing is broken and my hand is just extremely bruised and swollen. I am now home from the emergency room. I am NOT suicidal nor was I when I was self harmed. The doctors and the social worker were cool and supportive as well as appeared to understand why I self harmed. I self harmed because the PTSD symptoms from the recent sexual assault were bad which triggered other PTSD symptoms from other traumas I experienced throughout my life. I did a safety plan with the doctors and social worker.

Now that I am home and not at all ready to go to bed despite being tired I plan on doing my safety plan. I of course spent time with my cat, Billie who is currently curled up in my lap purring as I think he is happy for me to be home. In fact my hand is hurting as I type this blog but I can deal with it especially since I received some powerful pain medicine. Plus, my cat, Billie is helping me not focus on the pain.

I think if I can tolerate the pain in my hand, I will try to do some art work. Specifically, I will color. I will also attempt to do some diamond art as well. Not only that I will do some dot to dots if my pain doesn’t get too bad. It’s cool that they have adult dot to dots.

I think I will also attempt to do some crafts. One craft I will attempt to do but might not be able to do so if my hand hurts too badly is cross stitching. I love to cross stitch. Another craft I can do and learning how to do it is latch hook. I don’t really need to use my bad hand to latch hook.

Of course I will be listening to music if I am doing any art work or crafting. Music helps me be creative and also helps me deal with my emotions.

If crafting or art work is something that I cannot do due to my self harm injury of punching a brick wall I can always read. Reading helps me refocus if I am reading non fiction and it also helps me get out of my own reality if I am reading fiction.

I of course will be getting some sleep tonight. I just don’t know when at the moment. Due to the current lack of sleep, I did text and email my supervisors that I will not be into work later today. I am sure they won’t be too happy about it but the doctors and social worker think I should let my hand heal a little bit especially since Thursdays are my Fridays and my weekends are Fridays and Saturdays. I love my job and wish I could go to work later today but since part of my job is writing (typing) notes, it is best to give my hand a rest even though I am typing this blog post.

Before I go to sleep I plan on doing a mindfulness meditation with the Calm App. The Calm App is amazing and I appreciate being able to use it to help me with my everyday life as well as my recovery with my mental health challenges.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Yesterday Was Not a Good Day

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Good Morning, World or at least it is three twenty one in the morning in Seattle. Yesterday (Tuesday) was not a good day for me. I ended up in the hospital twice in the Emergency Room due to being suicidal. First time I went in it was four something in morning and was discharged. Thankfully I got home just in time for my psychiatric nurse practitioner called me for our phone appointment, She put me on Ativan which was a good thing.

Being home was not a good thing so I called my therapist who is fairly new to me and appears to be a great therapist. I also called one of the supervisors who happens to be my therapist supervisor. I called the both and left them both an email. The supervisor suggested to go back to the hospital so I did. But the first thing I did was have my grandpa and uncle pick up Billie with his supplies to take to grandpa. My uncle and grandpa dropped me back at the same hospital I was earlier.

On that note they had already did shift change and the social worker on duty was surprised to see me as I’m not going to the Emergency Room for mental health in over four years. Partly glad it was her and partly wish she wasn’t her. She pointed out some stuff I needed to hear which let me come back home. I’m glad she helped me make that decision as I fear if I ended back in a psych ward I most likely would have retreated to old behavior.

As of right now I can’t sleep for unknown reasons so I took an Ativan to help with my anxiety since Billie my cat is with my grandpa and uncle. I know Billie is in good hands but I sure do miss the little dude. Well not so little as he is fifteen and a half pounds. He could loos a few pounds just like I do.

I do not have much to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not the Weekend I Was Expecting

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Good Evening, World!!! This weekend didn’t turn out as planned. I was planning on going to a street fair in my neighborhood both yesterday and today as well as volunteer at PAWS Cat City this morning. Sadly, I cancelled those plans due to needing to go to the hospital late Friday night /early Saturday morning. I was unable to urinate for nearly twelve hours so I went to the hospital to get medical care. Good news is now I a am able to pee. Bad news is I have a bladder infection, a kidney infection in both kidney’s as well as kidney stones in both kidney’s. I do have meds on board and schedule an appointment with my regular doctor the Friday, May 27th.

I didn’t go to the street fair yesterday because I was at the hospital all night so I slept all day. I didn’t go to the street fair today because I’m just so tired from the meds they gave me. I missed going this year because they didn’t have the street fair in 2020 or 2021 due Covid-19. I miss hearing the music and seeing all the art at the street fair. Most of all I miss hanging out with friends eat street fair food. I did have friends bring street fair food to me hereat home and am grateful for that.

Another thing I missed doing was volunteering at PAWS Cat City this morning. I love being able to start the day by doing cleaning duties, playing with the cats and helping cats find furrever homes. I love volunteering at PAWS Cat City.

On that note I go to spend the day with Billie my cat all day as well as eat fair food brought to me by friends and hanging out with them in my home for a couple of hours. I was and am able to enjoy the art the bought for me. I was also able to listen to music from Spotify as well a read comic books. Even though my weekend plans didn’t go as planned I was able to do so self care and Billie my cat as well as friends and neighbors helping me out. Loved being able to enjoy art and street fair food brought by friends. Also loved being able to read comic books and listen to music as I hung out with my cat Billie.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not the not So Typical Weekly Plans Blog

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This weeks, weekly plans are not going go as planned. I didn’t get much sleep because I ended up in the hospital because my depression and anxiety were acting up. Thankfully, I wasn’t in a suicide mode or self harm mode.

After a few hours of sleep I am going to my grandpa’s house to do laundry. So sleep and laundry are on the list for today.

Of course I will be working Monday through Friday this week. It will not be an easy week but at least my friends, family and colleagues are being supportive.

Just About Rumblings

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Hello, World!!!! I went to work today via going to the office tomorrow. I love going into the office as it gives me more proactive ways to do to do some work. I love my job and am sad that my employer is going under which means everyone is getting laid off. I am concerned about my clients that my employer serves. The need the help they need in the queer community .

On that note I had to go to the hospital due to having an injury. I have some major bruisers and a broken finger. My boss says I could work from home due to my injury. I love my job and that y supervisor isn’t a micromanager. My servicer is awesome.

I am happy to be home with my cat and he is helping me with the grief of being laid off from my employer. I love the fact that he comforts me with the grief with the laid offs.

I do not have much ore to say about this particular blog post. I want to thank you for reading my blog.

Not Going to Work Today

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Good Morning, World!!! As if this day couldn’t get worse. Well it could get worse but I have faith it won’t. Despite not getting much sleep last due to an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing mask which is annoying in itself. I found out my dad was in the Emergency Room all night. He will be admitted to the hospital. It looks like I won’t be going to work like I had hoped to do. I did let two supervisors know as well as HR know that I would be going into work but I will have to now tell them I won’t be going into work. I really want to work but due to the lack of sleep due to a neighbor and my dad being in the hospital, I wouldn’t be at my best to help my clients. I really want to be at my best for my clients at work as they deserve to have me at my best.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is cuddling me right now. I think he senses that something is wrong and is comforting me. I just love my cat, Billie so much. He know exactly when I need some extra loving care and comfort.

As far as my dad goes, I hope he is just in the hospital for a couple of days. On a positive note he does not have Covid-19. He had a couple of grand mal seizures so they are just keeping him for observation and to make sure his meds are at an appropriated level. I love dad and am grateful that he raised me as a single dad back in the 80’s and 90’s with the help of my grandparents.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to say thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Wednesday ahead of you. I know I will try to have a good Wednesday. Just remember I appreciate all of you and think you are all awesome people. Peace Out, World!!!

Not My Ideal Way to Start Off a New Year

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Happy Belated New Years, World!!! I want to apologize for posting a late New Year’s post as I came up Covid-19 positive. Which has worn me out completely. I did go to the hospital; specifically the emergency room as I thought I either had strep through, the flu or an a reaction the the booster shot. Turns out I ended up having Covid. Now the way I thought I would been ending the year of 2021 or starting they year 2022. On a plus note at least the Emergency Room (ER) sent me home instead of hospitalizing me. I take it as a good sign they sent me home. I get diagnosed on December 30th of 2021 and was not able to work at all for four days due to how shitty I felt from having Covid.

As shitty has having Covid is, I am taking a leave of absence from my volunteer to job at PAWS Cat City for the month of January so I can make sure I have enough time to become symptom free and be able to quarantine the ten days after being symptom and able to get one negative Covid test back so I can go back to volunteering in February. I will miss volunteering with the cats as well as helping find the right cat for their furrever home with a human that loves them

As far as work goes, I called out sick due to Covid-19 for four days even though I can work from home. I was just feeling shitty as hell. I did go to work (from home) this past Friday as I was feeling better to be able to work. My employer appears to be supportive of me and my colleagues when we are sick with whatever we are sick with be they are more supportive when it comes to Covid-19.

I did end up having to go to the hospital emergency room when I first noticed the symptoms I was having. I went because I wasn’t sure if I was have a reaction to the Covid booster I received the day before I went to the emergency room or if it was the flu because it felt like a really bad flu. Turns out it was Covid and that my booster had nothing to do with me getting Covid. My entire family got tested and all them were negative but my mom is still waiting on her results of her test. I’m hoping it is negative as then I think I know where I got it from. It most like would have been from the hotel I stayed at. Any way I feel like the hospital wouldn’t have sent me home with Covid if it wasn’t a minor case even though Covid feels like hell even when you are sent home. I am beyond grateful to be home with Covid than to be in the hospital with Covid.

There is know place like home even if you feel like shit especially from Covid. It’s is nice to be home with my wonderful loving cat Billie Dean. Billie is such a loving cat the enjoys snuggling with me especially when I am not feeling will.

As far as work goes, I will be working from home till I am symptom free for ten days with two negative Covid test in a row before going back to the office two days a wake. I like how they want to protect my colleagues and clients a like.

My volunteer job like the fact that I am taking a leave of absence for the month of January to protect employees, volunteers and potential adopters from Covid especially since I am not sure when my symptoms will be gone and able to do the post symptomatic quarantine and able to get tested with a hopefully negative test.

As much as I am grateful that I am home sick with Covid and have the luxury of being able to work from home now that I am felling somewhat better, I am thrilled that I have my cat, Billie Dean to keep me company. I do miss face to face human interaction. Billie, my cat hasn’t exactly left my side since getting Covid as I think he want’s to make sure I am taken care of by him. I love my cat so very much.

On the note it snowed in Seattle and I am grateful that it is gone as I highly dislike snow even when I am stuck home sick with Covid. Seattle basically shuts down at any chance of snow. Snow is not my friend.

Honesty, I am really missing volunteering at this very moment as that is what I would be doing this very moment if I didn’t have Covid-19. I miss playing with other cats and able to do what I need to do start the day at PAWS Cat City. I love volunteering at Cat City. I just want to expose my the employees, potential adopter and fellow volunteers with Covid.

As sucky the ending of 2021 was and how sucky the beginning of 2022 is due to having Covid, I am happy that Covid did not get my hospitalized. Getting Covid was not my ideal way end one year and start a new year but at least I am not hospitalized because of it. At least I get to be home spending it with my cat, Billie Dean. I love the fact the Billie is more cuddly at the moment due to me not feeling well. I am also grateful that I am feeling better to be working from home despite how tired I get. I love my job and that my work understands the need to work from home due to Covid.

I do not have much more to stay in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog as if wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal that you read my blog. Happy New Years and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! I am tired as hell, so I will keep this brief. This week has been a long week or at least that was the case regarding work. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job, it was just a long week.

Despite a long week at work, I ended up in the emergency room yesterday (Friday) evening due to having pain in my right kidney. I thought I had another kidney infection but I do not. I have kidney stones and they hurt like fucking hell but at least it is not another kidney infection.

Even though I didn’t get to bed till midnight last night, I still went for a walk with a friend this morning. It was a good way to get some exercise and catch up with a friend. My friend and I hadn’t hung out since last year before the pandemic so it was to catch up with each other in person.

Not only did I hang out with my friend, I volunteered mid afternoon at PAWS Cat City today. It was nice to be able to volunteer and help cats get new furrever homes. I love volunteering.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!