An Ambien Fog Post While Still Sleepless in Seattle

Good morning, world. I am doing another Ambien fogged post while being Sleepless in Seattle. I highly don’t recommend you do this at all. Probably not one of my wisest choices I have done but certainly the worst I have done in an Ambien fog.

Right now my moth infection is what is keeping me up and the Ambien isn’t helping me sleep like it usually does. So I am blaming my physical illness on not being able to sleep due to the pain. There is only so much Ambien can do and it can’t help with pain. I just wish the doctors would have given me stronger than ibuprofen but hopefully my regular doctor will on Friday when I see her.

Right now, I am worrying about my cat as she is home alone since I am at my grandpa’s house. I know she is all right as a neighbor checked on her and said she as okay. I love my cat, Lil Gertie so much.

Besides worrying about Lil Gertie, I am worried about my health care and how much it is going to cost me. Now that Trump is in office I lost most what I got due to Obamacare.  I just wish Trump didn’t take away my much need health care away. I am a working class person and was doing well with ObamaCare and now that trump is in office I’m not getting good medical.

This is why I always volunteer for specific people running for office as well as going out and voting. Its a way that I know my voice is heard in a weird sort of way.

The Ambien fog is really kicking in if I am talking political on my post. I just hope that the tags I have put up bring new people to read my post. It might be a first post but at least it won’t be boring and at least it will be weird.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has a happy Tuesday and gets some rest like I am planning on it. Good Night and Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle – Ambien Fog Post

Hello, World!!! It is the middle of the night and I woke up not being able to go back to sleep. I, unfortunately woke up my grandpa with being a wake at this time of morning. He did go back to bed as I sit here blogging about the lack of sleep I am having.

My facial infection is what woke me up so I am staying up for a while. Of course blogging is one of the things that I have helped me through weird and odd time like theses. I’m also posting under the influence of taking Ambien and wonder how much of this I will remember I write.

I also think I am going to listen to some music after I am done blogging. Blogging and music help me a great deal when I wake up especially when I am in Ambien type fog. Listening to music helps a great deal and hopefully will get me back to sleep.

Have a good night everyone. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Not The Way I Desire To Start A Monday

Happy Monday, World!!! I posted my last post approximately four or so hours ago. Give or take thirty minutes. I am still in an Emergency Room, room. They are not sure if they are going to admit me due to the severity of my infection but they do have I.V antibiotics going on me. Now if they can only give me the good pain meds instead of the ibuprofen shit they are giving me.

As much as I wish I was getting stronger pain meds, I want my cat Lil Gertie, here that much more. I miss her very much. I have family and neighbors that will take care of her if I am admitted to the hospital for my stupid infection.

On the plus note, I have my laptop to be to help me keep myself busy and all of you up dated on what the hell is going on with me. Another thing I have is my art supplies with me. Specifically my coloring supplies. This will help me deal with the pain quite a bit more.

I just want to thank you all for reading my blog. I hope your Monday is going far better than mine is. Have a wonderful work week. Peace Out, World!!!

A Not So Good Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It hasn’t been a very good Sunday for me. I ended up in two Emergency Rooms at two different hospitals. One which told me it I had a bad tooth and needed to get a dentist. The other hospital said I had a mouth and facial infection with a possible tooth infection. So I am now on antibiotics for a the mouth and facial infection along with taking ibuprofen for the pain. I was suggested by the second hospital to get a dentist whom gave me referrals to.

On a plus note I was able to do some art work as well as post this blog. On a bigger plus note I am able to be home with my cat, Lil Gertie and able to play with her. She is such a sweet cat.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. Peace Out, World.

Update on Doctor’s Appointment

Good Morning, World!!! Yup, it is still morning in my corner of the world. I went to my doctor’s appointment and it went well. I have a slight concussion from being hit in the eye by a neighbor. I am taking 800mg ibuprofen for the pain and an anti-nausea medicine for nausea.

I am now going to read. I am not sure if I am going to read my Star Wars book or a book on Buddhism. I might read both at some point today. I might even do a workbook or two as well. I love to read and work on my workbooks.

Thank you for reading. Peace out, World!!!

Nothing But Random Thoughts

Hello, World!!! I am sitting here just going to blog about whatever the hell is on my mind at the moment. I don’t care what comes out of my fucking mouth right now. I am a little angry for no apparent reason.

I am angry at myself for locking myself out of my apartment. This increased my anxiety. So, I took my Xanax to help me with the anxiety once I was let back in. I had to wait an hour and half before someone could come unlock my door.

Now I am going to read my book about Why Buddhism Is True by Robert Wright. After that I will read my Buddhist Scriptures as this might be of help me to help myself calm down from the anxiety.

Having a spiritual bath is a key part to people’s recovery. I hope this the right path for me especially in regards to my recovery. Plus to help reduce my anger and anxiety without having to take any meds for it.

I think I might be doing some more painting to help me through the anxiety. Painting helps me express all my emotions when I have trouble acknowledging what they are.

Thank you for reading. Have a good Mother’s Day!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Midnight Ramblings

Hello, World!!! It is midnight in my corner of the world. I am up watching television. Actually, I am watching The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. I watch this show as it helps with my anxiety especially before I go to bed for the night.

Another thing that helps with my anxiety is the new weighted blank I got today. I really recommend it as it appears to be helpful. Or at least the twelve or so hours I have had it. I didn’t think it would be helpful and boy was I wrong.

I have been working on one of my workbooks. In fact I have been working on the workbooks that deals with mindfulness. Focusing on mindfulness as been quite helpful when I am dealing with.

I think the Ambien is starting to kick in. I think I should get some sleep before I get a little loopy from the Ambien.

Thank you for reading. It is very much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Back From The Emergency Room

Good Morning, World!!! I am back from the emergency room (ER). They gave be some other meds to help me sleep. They want me to try to get sleep without the meds first. I will try to take a nap but wont take the meds till tonight. The doctor wants me to contact my mental health treatment team which I am going to do. I just want to sleep.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Wanting The Oh So Elusive Sleep

Good Morning, World!!! It is now five thirty in the morning for me. I still haven’t gotten any sleep. Sleep that I am desperately wanting and needing. I finally took some Ambien and it didn’t fucking work. It usually does and it is frustrating the hell out of me that I can not get some fucking sleep.

I am so frustrated that it is putting me in crisis mode. Enough of a crisis mode that once I am done blogging, I am going to take myself to the Emergency Room (E.R). I will be okay, I just need someone to fucking hear me on how fucking frustrating getting no sleep is. Right now I think going to the E.R is the best bet. I don’t want to concern you all. I just wanted to let you know what is going on. I know I will be okay, I just need to get the sleep thing taken care of.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

May Is Mental Health Month

Hello, World!!! May is mental health month. Today, is the first day of mental health awareness month. I hope that I can have at least one educational piece about mental health each day of this month. I can’t promise I will be able to do so but I can at least try.

My goal for mental health month and beyond is to help lesson the stigma about mental health. For me stigma is one of the biggest issues that we who have a mental health diagnosis struggle from beside our symptoms of the illness as the the side effects of meds.

Thank you for reading and hope you can help me with fighting the stigma that goes to having a mental health challenge. Peace Out, World!!!