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Ready to go to Bed & It’s Not Even 6:00pm

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Good Evening, World. According my clock on the wall in my living room, it is 5:30pm here in Seattle and I am tired as hell. I am so ready for bed. Hell, I might even go to bed early which means, I most likely will go to bed after I finish writing (and posting) this particular blog post. I’m not sure why I am so tired but I know why I have been so relaxed and calm today especially this afternoon and evening.

I took a mental health day off from work today due to some light burnout. On that note, I have been home all day doing self care acts knowing it will help with my slight burnout. I started out the day by using the calm app to do some mindfulness meditation. I also did a couple other mindfulness meditation practice they have. On top of that I was able to do some check ins with the calm app and see how helpful it was and is to me.

Another thing that helped me get relaxed and calm is my cat Billie Dean. Billie appears to know when I need extra cuddling time to get myself calm. On that note I was able to do some mindfulness meditation with Billie, my cat laying on my lap for two and half hours.

Despite the lack of sleep last night I really think doing mindfulness meditation helped me become more sleepy. That is why I am considering that my bedtime for today will be about six o’clock in the evening here in Seattle.

Since I don’t have much more to say except goodnight and thank you for reading my blog. If it weren’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Goodnight and Peace Out World!!!

Rudely Awaken by Fire Alarm

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Good Fucking Morning, World!!! I am fucking angry as hell right now. I was sound asleep and the damn fire alarm went of again. I’m angry because an idiot of a neighbor pulled the fire alarm again because another neighbor was not wearing a mask in a common area of our apartment building. I fucking don’t understand why this neighbor has to pull the fire alarm every fucking time he sees another neighbor who doesn’t wear a mask. It’s fucking bullshit.

The fire department is just as angry as my neighbors and I. The fire department has fined this neighbor so many time it’s not funny. The sad yet good thing is the dude admits to the fire fighters. Sadly, the fire fighters have been here so many time because of this dude that they now have the cops come to “talk” to him. Plus, the fire fighters fear for this neighbors safety because other neighbors want to “beat the shit out of him.” I’m not one of those people but I do feel like screaming at time. Pulling the fire alarm is a misdemeanor crime and the cops won’t arrest him because the county jail won’t accept people with misdemeanor crimes due to Covid-19 which is fucking bullshit.

Okay my rant is over. I don’t anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Never too Early to be Up for Cat Therapy

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Good Morning, World!! It is six o’clock in morning in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I don’t have to be up till 9:00 for a 9:30 appointment with my doctor as I don’t start work till twelve noon on Tuesdays. But I am up at six o’clock in my morning because my cat is wanting some cuddle time. Maybe it’s because my PTSD and Anxiety symptoms are high at the moment my depression is at a low grade level at the moment.

As much as I wish I was still asleep, I am grateful for my cuddles with my cat, Billie Dean. Billie is famous for his cuddle especially when my mental health symptoms are acting up. I did have some nightmares last night which increased the anxiety and the PTSD but am grateful for the Billie cuddles to start of the day even if it is earlier than normal for my Tuesday work schedule. I love my cat and how he provides me emotional support.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle

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Good very early Morning, World!!! Sadly I can not sleep at the moment due to insomnia and PTSD. Having both really sucks shit. Right now I feel like listening to my Childhood Memories Play list of music to help me get relaxed enough to get back to sleep. Having insomnia and PTSD sucks and all I want is sleep.

At least the Childhood Memories Playlist songs are helping along with my cat Billie helping me with his unconditional love. I love my cat so much. I really thing the music and my cat will help me get back to sleep.

I don’t have much more do to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a Typical Monday at Work & Art Therapy

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Good Evening, World!!! It’s a typical Monday at work for me. The best part of the work week for me is Mondays because I get to do an Art Group with and intern who is getting a degree in art therapy. Granted the Art Group is at the end of the day but it makes Mondays more bearable. I love my job and am grateful that I can co-facilitate the art group with a great art therapist intern. My clients are awesome artist and do their best work listening to music so we have some “music therapy” along with doing art.

I had supervision with my supervisor today. For some reason it appeared awkward to me which is unusual for our supervision. I love my job with a passion and am grateful that I am not micromanaged by my supervisor. She is pretty laid back is a good egg.

Billie was a great coworker today and stayed by my side during most of my shift. His unconditional love and support when I need it is never ending and am grateful he able to pick up on my emotions. I love my cat Billie Dean so much. Plus, he is a great coworker.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

2 Year Anniversary of Gotcha Day of Billie Dean

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Billie Dean sticking his head out of his enclosed bed to say “it’s time for bed.”

Good Afternoon, World!!! Today marks exactly two years since I adopted Billie Dean. I adopted him from the same place I adopted Lil Gertie from and now volunteer at. In fact, I met Billie during one of my volunteer shifts a PAWS Cat City. I fell in love with Billie and adopted him.

Billie is one of the sweetest cats I have met. He is quite the talker. He loves his catnip. He enjoys spending hours in my love and insist sleeping with me when I go to bed. Most importantly he is family. He is my family and I love him and I know he loves me unconditionally.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post except that I love my cat, Billie with all my heart. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Attending a Late Night 12-Step Meeting

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Happy Friday, Again, World. It is pretty late on for me to attend an a 12-step meeting. I will be attending Adult Children of Alcoholics (and dysfunctional families. I haven’t gone in a while a will consider my new ACA birthday. I am not a big fan of 12step meeting but ACA doesn’t fee like the typical 12step program is is more recovery focused on the individual than the person that is alcoholic or dysfunctional. It’s has a lot of recovery related language which is why I I think I enjoy it. Of course my cat will be attending with me as he as been being more of a love but than he usually is.

Attending ACA meeting is my way to continue my recovery process and my recovery is extremely important to me, Being active recovery is what helps me stay stable to I can work as a peer specialist or peer counselor. Any skills I can get will help me be able to help others.

I am grateful that I found Adult Children of Alcoholics and dysfunctional families last year but stopped going so today Friday, February 4th, 2022 will be my new birthday. I really like the support the get from ACA/ACOA.

Thank you for listening to me and supporting me in one of my 2022 goals. I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I am also that 12Step meeting are now online due to the stupid pandemic. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Friday

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Happy Friday, World!!! Today marks two todays since I officially met my cat Billie Dean while doing a volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City even thought I didn’t officially adopt Billie till February 6th of 2020. Which was about a month and a half before lockdown happened due to Covid-19 the dreaded pandemic everyone wants to go away.

Even though today is the the two day anniversary of officially meeting Billie Dean while volunteering, I put him on hold for two days so I could adopt my cuddly, loving, talkative, fifteen pound kitty who knows how to love me unconditionally as well as a sweet cat who loves everyone especially me. I am grateful that in two days it will be the two year gotcha (adoption) day or Billie. I love my cat so much an am grateful that I was able to adopt Billie right before the lockdown happened and I truly think Billie helped me through the lock down from this stupid pandemic.

In fact today was the first day back to the office after have Covid-19 myself. My colleagues mainly discussed our cats today and how loving they are and how helpful they are for our own mental health. In fact my colleagues have been coming friends to me which is a good thing.

Since becoming friends with colleagues we decided to end our Friday and begin our weekend with going out to dinner. We has some pretty good food from a restaurant across the street from our work. Great food and awesome happy hour drinks at a cheap price.

Having the support of colleagues that are becoming friends as well as the love of my cat Billie surely help me with my every day life as well as my mental health symptoms. It’s great to have friends, colleagues and pet to help me through my depression.

Having great support is awesome. I do not not have much more to say in this particular blog post except thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. I am also grateful for it being Friday and the start of the weekend for me. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend and a happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

2022 Goals (Part 3)

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Good Morning, World!!! It is 6:03am in the morning in my corner of the world here in Seattle. I have been coming up with some more goals I know that I can accomplish by the end of the year or hopefully make some small accomplishments with the goals.

One of the goals I want to focus on this year is self care. Self care can look differently to different people at different times. One of my self care goals is to get my hair cut and/or died twice this year. Getting a hair cut make me feel getter about myself.

Another self care goal which is also goal of my mine is to do my chores a on a more regular basis. Like actually get my apartment completely cleaned and declutter the stuff I do not need any more. I plan on having a schedule to do chores around my apartment at least three times a week. As far as the chores, I think cleaning my apartment will help with my depression.

As far as self help stuff, I plan on doing some self help workbooks to help with my healing and recovery. Workbooks tend to help me along with attending therapy session with my therapist. The more help I can get the more recovery I can gain to be able to help the people I help at work with.

I am also planning on attending a 12-step meeting that has the twelve step concepts in it as well as can have peer recovery language in it. It focus on the self and how to realize that you don’t need to fix the person with the problem that you just need to focuses on that you need to change yourself. It has pit of other 12step programs in it which makes it more center to being a better peer and had peer recovery language in the particular 12step program which is why I like it is so much. So far I still have more goals but wanted to let you know part three of my goals.

And of course taking care of my cat, Billie Dean will always be a goal. He is my baby and my life and I love him to death. I’m sure he loves me back. I love my cuddle but of a cat.

I don’t have much to say in the particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Having a Tough Day at Work

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am currently having a tough day a work. Part of it is because I didn’t get much sleep last night due various reasons which included my neighbors being dickwads during a time where most people actually sleep or at least try to sleep.

Today is just one of them days. I have two clients schedule which I had a session with one of them already and will see my next one at 2:00pm; Seattle time. Today has been primarily being in meetings all day as well as dealing with clients in crisis as I am apart of the Thursday crisis coverage team.

Anyway, some of the crisis calls I have taken today have been triggering for me. I think it is partly due to the lack of sleep last night. Anyway, I am grateful for my colleagues as I have been able to do check-in’s with a couple of them after a couple of rough crisis calls from clients.

I have amazing colleagues and an awesome supervisor. I love my employer and feel supported by everyone including the leadership team. Having an awesome employer and colleagues is super helpful everyday especially and challenging days like today.

And of course I am working from home today so I can’t forget to mention how supportive of a colleague my cat Billie Dean has been today. I know for fact he knows I am needing the extra cuddles and love he is giving me. Animals including my cat, Billie have unconditional love especially for their humans.

I do not have much more to say in in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!