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Can’t Sleep; Worried About Mom & Brother

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I am unable to sleep for two reason. First my mom has stage three lung cancer and second; nobody has heard from my brother for nearly three months. Nobody seems to care about to do a missing person report on my brother but me. My brother came up missing right before the cancer diagnosis of my mom. Not sure if the two are related. I’m worried about both my mom and brother. I would love my mommy and brother to meet my cat Billie. Not sure if that will be a reality now as nobody knows where my brother is and nobody knows how much time my mom has live or if she will survive. I’m hopping a miracle happens some how since my brother has know idea our mom has cancer.

I don’t have much much to say but thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Middle of a Sunday Afternoon Update

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I’m not feeling so good. It’s not because I am sick; it is because I am dealing with the worst cramps in the world and I usually have some pretty bad cramps. These cramps are some of the worst I’ve had that at one point in time they were so painful, I actually cried and had to take one of my narcotic medications to relieve the pain. I rarely take a narcotic pain reliever especially for cramps as I have high tolerance for pain.

Since my cramps were so bad I called in sick to my volunteer job. I called out because wouldn’t be able to do my volunteer work like should do it because of my stupid period.

Having a period doesn’t mean you are a woman; it means you have uterus and were assigned at birth to be “female.” In fact people naturally assume I am “female” because I was assigned it at birth and appear to look like one when in reality, I consider myself non-binary and gender non conforming. I realize I could loose some followers and regular readers for my gender identity but that is their choice even if I would like them to continue to read my blog.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except that having a period fucking sucks. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It truly means the world to me that you do read my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Lack of Sleep & Other Thoughts

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It is five o’clock in the morning Seattle time and still haven’t slept yet. Good ole insomnia is kicking my ass tonight. That besides the point. Today’s my brother’s birthday and I made him a care package but I don’t where to send it as has done his disappearing act again.

Anyway I took a four hour training on First Aid, CPR and AED. I needed the first aid and CPR for work and found out if I’m strained on AED I get a raise so yeah me. On that note the four training could have been down in two hours but that is my opinion.

I better try and get some sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

Up Before the Butt Crack of Dawn

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Good Sunday Morning, World from Seattle, Washington, USA. It is two o seven in the morning as I start this lovely post. I would rather be sleeping soundly like my cat Billie Dean is right now.. In fact he is snoring. Snoring is normal for him.

Lets start why I’m probably up before the but crack of dawn which would be work tomorrow (Monday). I go into my work site for the first time I go into my actual job site and I have anxiety over it. Not sure why but I think it’s because I want to do a good job at what I do and proof my supervisor and myself that I can do the job.

On that note, I will be volunteering at PAWS Cat City later this morning and am proud to say that Boris got adopted Friday morning. If he wasn’t FIV positive and more lovey dovey than my Billie Boy I would have add him to the family.

My other plans to do today is to do a math workbook to freshen up on my math skills. I also plan on doing a mindfulness workbook to help me with being more mindful of the moment and maybe start a mindfulness group at work if it’s the type of recovery work I can do at the Triage center. I’m also going to work on a workbook specifically for mental health recovery.

As part of my self care besides volunteering at PAWS Cat City, I’ll do some art work by coloring. And of course spending time with my cat Billie.

Happy Friday

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Good Morning, World!!! I am off from work today yet I woke up at five o’clock in the morning. Wish I could have slept longer but the sleep I got was restful. It’s always a good thing to get restful sleep.

Since I was up so early a neighbor of mine who is a good friend goes out to breakfast every Friday so I asked if I could join him for breakfast. He said yes so we went out to breakfast. I had biscuits and gravy while my friend had was is called the Seattle omelet. It was cool hanging out with this friend.

Since I don’t have anything to do today since I don’t have to work; I signed up for an extra volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City. So I will be volunteering for a few hours today. I love volunteering and seeing cats get their furrever home.

On that note I’ve been doing some art work since waking up as well as after breakfast with a friend. I’ve been coloring the poster for my mom. In fact I plan on coloring after my volunteer job as well. I love doing art work.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you all for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend ahead. Happy Friday and Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 9: Writing & Not Writing

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Hello, World!!! To write or not to write is very dependent on the day as was as the time and what is going on in my life at the moment. For example there are times I like to go out to eat and take my laptop with me to writer. I sadly was not able to do that when we had the not so lovely pandemic of Covid-19 which is sadly still around. I do some of my best writing when I eat in a restaurant and Covid-19 prevent me from doing that but that’s okay as I found other ways to write or not to write.

When I comes to blogging I either write in my bedroom or my recliner if my cat Billie doesn’t want to sit on my lap. I also like to blog out doors as it can give me similar inspiration like blogging at a restaurant does.

As far as not writing, sometimes my cat can get in the way but I am more than okay with that. Other reasons for not writing is due to work or my mental health is acting up. As far as blogging outside it is all dependent on the weather out side. Seattle is known to have gloomy weather days which sucks but I’ve learned to deal with it.

Too Early To Be Awake on the First Day of a Job

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Good Morning, World from the land known as Seattle. It is one forty seven in the morning here in Seattle and been awake since one o’clock Seattle time. Yes, it only been just over forty five minutes but I’m tired as fucking hell and have to get up in four hours.

I think it is pre jitter nerves for the first day of my new job in Everett. I’m not very familiar with the Everett area and will be spending at a location on my first day that I normal won’t be at. On that note, I get work from home for the rest of the week and start working at my “normal office” on the 18th of July. I’ll be working from 9:00am to 5:00pm so I sort of get to sleep in. On the plus note, I get to read or listen to a podcast as I will be taking public transportation.

On that note when I woke up at one o’clock in the morning I took some meds to help with my anxiety and nerves. The meds are starting to kick in so I’m going to try to go back to sleep. Just wish I was as sound as asleep as my Billie the cat is right now. I do wan to thank you for reading my blog. If wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Reading About What the Math Book is Going to Teach Me

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Good Morning, World!!!! This is going to be brief blog post read few pages in math book on what I am going learn in i. I’m going to to learn basic math as well at basic pre-algebra so I can be able to basic mathematics at work even though I don’t think I will need to know pre algebra.

Told you all it was going to be a brief post. I don’t have much to say except thank you for reading my blog,. It it greatly appreciative from my end to things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would no be writing my blog. Sol thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle so Coloring is the Activity of the Night

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I sill have a lot more to go on my post for my mom birthday in early September but I think I will be done with it by hen with a frame to go with it.

Happy two of seven in the morning here in Seattle. I am coloring a post for my mom for her birthday. I’m also going to frame it. I hope she likes. I love my mom so much and wish she didn’t have stage three lung cancer. Getting the news that my mom has lung cancer was hard. On the plus side she had a MRI done and it turns out she does not have brain cancer so that is wonderful news.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I just wanted to show it you how far the picture is coming along and update you on my moms health issues. Thank your for reading my blog. If it greatly appreciative from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

Billie Got the Zoomies; Want to Play & Then Eat, so No Sleeping in For this Cat Owner

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Good Morning, World. It is four forty nine in the morning here in Seattle. Billie, my cat decided to have the zoomies and after that want to play. I love my cat dearly but I would like to sleep in a little bit longer. Preferably eight in the morning but be okay with seven in the morning.

So my plans for the morning is feed the king of the house; my cat Billie Dean. After that, play with Billie. Right now his go to toys are balls especially the noisy ones. As much I wish I was asleep right now, I look at it two ways, Billie is getting me prepared to waking up early when I start work next week and that I have time to do some art work actually some coloring.

I’m pretty sure I will be listening to some music. Most likely my recovery play list. If I don’t listen to music then I will listen to podcast on philosophy. Specifically the podcast “Philosophize This.” I’m not sure why I like to listen to music or a podcast while coloring but maybe it helps me with the creative juices in my brain.

I do not have much more to say is in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciative from my end of thigs that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you once again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World.