Sleepless in Seattle so Coloring is the Activity of the Night

I sill have a lot more to go on my post for my mom birthday in early September but I think I will be done with it by hen with a frame to go with it.

Happy two of seven in the morning here in Seattle. I am coloring a post for my mom for her birthday. I’m also going to frame it. I hope she likes. I love my mom so much and wish she didn’t have stage three lung cancer. Getting the news that my mom has lung cancer was hard. On the plus side she had a MRI done and it turns out she does not have brain cancer so that is wonderful news.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I just wanted to show it you how far the picture is coming along and update you on my moms health issues. Thank your for reading my blog. If it greatly appreciative from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

Too Many Thoughts Running Through My Mind

Good Afternoon, World from Seattle, Washington. Right now I have way too many thoughts running through my mind. I have been having many ups and downs this past week.

First I have my last day at my previous job due to being laid off. Then I have a job interview and two days later find out I got the job. I am taking the job and start at the end of the month. On that note I don’t think it’s the best job for me but it is something in my career of choice.

The day after I found out I got the job, I found out my mom has lung and they are still doing test regarding it including test on her memory loss. I’m hoping it’s not a brain tumor but will find out when an MRI and other test are done. But I’ve already told you this.

It just appears that when things get a bit overwhelming I tend to sign up for free courses WordPress does. I usually sign up for two or three of them and start one and sadly don’t finish them. Well, I signed up for four of them and it is my hope with what’s going with my mom’s health and me starting a new job that I actually start and finish them. I guess it’s a goal to help me get through both the good and bad stress I’ve been dealing with.

Speaking of stress, my cat, Billie Dean, has been helping me a great deal with the stress I have been dealing with. I love my cat, Billie so much. The thing I don’t understand is how Billie can love me so unconditionally. Hell, any pet has unconditional love.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated on my end that you the reader, read my blog. In fact if it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart once again for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World. It is Saturday which mean its weekly check-in time even though I haven’t done one in a few weeks. I have had many up and downs this week. If you have been reading my blog regularly I got laid off and my last day was Friday, June 3rd, 2022. Which put be in a depression that sent me into the Emergency Room for psych reasons. Thankfully I was not hospitalized.

Monday of this week I had an interview for a peer specialist job. If I wouldn’t have been discharged from the Emergency Room for psych reasons I wouldn’t have received the call on Wednesday to accept the job I had interviewed for on Monday. My orientation is on Monday, June 20th and my first day of training is on Monday, June 27th.

Sadly, I found out on Thursday, June 9th that my mom has lung cancer and test are still being done. They don’t know if how severe it is as her memory is sadly going down hill. The doctors need to do a MRI to see if there are any unusual spots on her brain and if so is it able to do an operation on the possible brain tumor which would have spread due to the Lung cancer. They will able deal with the lung cancer and take out the spot so that’s a good thing. If it turns out there is no spot on her brain when get gets the MRI, it could mean she could have dementia or Alzheimer’s. As much as I don’t want my mom to have Alzheimer’s. or dementia, I would rather haver her have that than a brain tumor due to her lung cancer.

Going on to a better subject, Seattle had a beautiful day. I was able enjoy the Sunny is Seattle day with my cat Billie Dean. Billie was actually brave enough to be outside on his harness and leash for ten minutes. He spent thirty minutes walking around inside my apartment building. We both got are steps in today.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you read my blog from my perspective. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.. Peace Out, World!!!

A Rollercoaster of the Last Few Days

Good Evening, World. Today has been a rollercoaster of a day. Lets start with the good news. I had an interview on Monday an was offered the job yesterday (Wednesday) that I got the job. I am looking forward to the new job that I start June 27th of this month. I have mixed feelings with this job but at least I’ll have employment starting the end of the month.

On that note my mom’s health hast been the best and have forgetting things a lot and usually remembers everything. My mom’s breathing has been getting worse so long story short the found a spot on her lung. It’s been made official she has lung cancer but need more test to be done see what stage it is in. The doctors need to do more test including removing the spot on her lung. She will be having more test including an MRI for her head due to her forgetfulness which is unlike my mom. If they find something in her brain that it is not suppose to be there not only will she have surgery on the removing the spot if find one if it safe enough to do it as the brain is very fragile. I will keep you updated about my mom when test results come in.

I’m just glad that I have the support of my friends, family and of course my cat Billie. Today has been a tough day and Billie has be helpful.

Than you for reading my blog. I hope you can give out positive energy and vibes for my mom. I love her so much. Again thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just One of Them Days

Hello, World!!! It’s been one of them days where I things that went all the wrong directions, actually got everyone off work early. First the president is in town so everyone is working from home. Which is great because I’m dealing with a migraine.

The not so great part of working from home is four out of my five clients cancelled on me and I am finished with my paperwork so my supervisor gave me the rest of the day off with pay due to having a migraine. To make it worse the fire alarm system in my apartment building keeps malfunctioning

Just like planning a good bye party at work in a dysfunctional way, this is how my neighbors get together in a difunctional way. Yes, in a way my dysfunctional family’s are very similar at times, annoying and fun at the same time.

Well, since I get to take the rest of the day off, I get to do some self care. Self care with my cat Billie and listening to music while taking care of my health care of a migraine. Peace Out, World.

A Brief Post About Nothing

Good Evening, World!!! I didn’t post my Everyday Inspiration today because, my depression and anxiety were so bad that I needed to call out to work due being sick. Well maybe really depressed and anxiety ridden. I’ve been sleeping most of the day. I feel bad because, I was ignored my poor Billie Dean all night as well as today due to sleeping the most of the day. I hope you all can forgive me. I will be back to do my Everyday Inspiration course on tomorrow (Friday ) and/or Saturday. Thank you for understanding.

I do not have much more to discuss in his particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. I am greatly appreciated that you the reader, read the blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sound Asleep & Woke Up With an Asthma Attack

Good Very Early, Morning, World!!! I am not a happy camper right now. I was sound asleep and woke of from an asthma attack. Someone or maybe multiples someone’s are smoking in their individuals are smoking in their apartments which is creeping into the hallway and into other apartments. Apartments of those who don’t smoke cigarettes and/or weed. I don’t smoke cigarettes nor do I smoke weed due allergies of the cigarette smoke and it causing me asthma attacks like the pot smoke does.

It is against the lease to smoke in our units and inside common areas and the community patio. Sadly, the management can’t do anything about because there needs to be witnesses and/or proof which fucking sucks. You need to be breathing and alive to be able to pay rent and if a resident dies due to asthma attack from the cigarette and/or pot smoke then the family has everyone right to sue the management company for not doing shite about it. Thankfully my emergency inhaler worked.

I don’t have much more to say this blog post. I am tired has hell. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Have good Saturday ahead of you all even if it’s 3:38 in morning or at least it is in Seattle. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Take a walk around the blog
  • Go to my grandpa’s house to spend time with him as well as do laundry 
  • Do workbooks relates to my recovery

Monday

  • Mindfulness medication practice
  • Virtual Doctors appointment
  •  Work
  • Dinner with a friend
  • Work on a workbook for my recovery

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbook that will help me with my recovery
  • Dinner with another friend

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Attend a 12 step prrotrom

Thursday

  • Mindfulness mindfulness practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on a workbook that will help me with my recovery

Friday

  • Mindfulness mediation practice
  • Walks around the block
  • Work
  • Dinner with a friend

Saturday

  • Plain is to do nothing all and be lazy

Not Going to Work Today

Good Morning, World!!! As if this day couldn’t get worse. Well it could get worse but I have faith it won’t. Despite not getting much sleep last due to an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing mask which is annoying in itself. I found out my dad was in the Emergency Room all night. He will be admitted to the hospital. It looks like I won’t be going to work like I had hoped to do. I did let two supervisors know as well as HR know that I would be going into work but I will have to now tell them I won’t be going into work. I really want to work but due to the lack of sleep due to a neighbor and my dad being in the hospital, I wouldn’t be at my best to help my clients. I really want to be at my best for my clients at work as they deserve to have me at my best.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is cuddling me right now. I think he senses that something is wrong and is comforting me. I just love my cat, Billie so much. He know exactly when I need some extra loving care and comfort.

As far as my dad goes, I hope he is just in the hospital for a couple of days. On a positive note he does not have Covid-19. He had a couple of grand mal seizures so they are just keeping him for observation and to make sure his meds are at an appropriated level. I love dad and am grateful that he raised me as a single dad back in the 80’s and 90’s with the help of my grandparents.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to say thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Wednesday ahead of you. I know I will try to have a good Wednesday. Just remember I appreciate all of you and think you are all awesome people. Peace Out, World!!!

An Extremely Lazy Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It is ten o’clock at night in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I literally have done nothing all day be eat, sleep and read Wonder Woman comic books. I mostly slept all day. I wish I didn’t sleep all day because it screws up with my sleep hygiene; sleep schedule.

I’m starting to get worried about my sleep schedule because I am wondering it is mainly due to getting over Covid-19 or if depression symptoms are starting to creep back in. No matter the reason, I just want to be back on my normal sleep schedule. If it is because of depression, I will need to let both my physical and mental health teams be aware of it. As far as the Covid-19 shit messing with the sleep, I know it’s normal for some people to feel extremely fatigue that it makes them sleep more than they usually do.

As far as when I have been awake today, I’ve been in bed cuddling with my very sweet kitty, Billie Dean. In fact I joke around with people that I sleep with a man every night name Billie. Not my fault people don’t pick up on the joke especially when they know I have a male cat. Billie is such a cuddle but and a pain in the butt at times.

While being in bed most of the day cuddling with my precious cat, Billie, I have been reading comics. Specifically comic books. To be more specific, I have been reading Wonder Woman comic books. In fact the back story of me becoming a Wonder Woman fan was because of my dad who was a single dad. Long story short my mom abandoned both my dad and myself in the middle of the night when my dad was working a night shift leaving me home by myself at the age of three. I know my mom left a note but since I couldn’t l read it I called my grandparent phone number which I was required to memorize. Anyway, my mom left both me and my dad because she couldn’t handle dealing with a man with a TBI working on sobriety and a daughter dealing with hearing impairments and speech delays. Even though I had my paternal grandmother as a female role model, my dad with his intellectual disabilities and TBI know he was not able to read due to is disabilities he wanted to make sure I had a role model to look up to even if it was/is a fictional one. So at the age of them three my dad started buying me Wonder Woman comic books. As I grew older and learned how to read, I would read two to three Wonder Woman comic books to my dad as part of our bedtime routine. I may still be sad my dad was not able to read bedtime stories to me but am grateful that we looked and Wonder Woman comic books as apart of our bedtime routine which turned into me reading them to my dad once I was able to read. Yes, my grandparents did help with me learning to read but watching my dad full of pride with me reading is something I will never forgot.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except the my dad making sure I learned to read despite him not being able to read makes my heart happy and grateful. I would like to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. Again, from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!