Tag Archives: Mental Health

Awesome Time With Friends

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Hello, World!!! It’s me again. Yes, I know this is like my millionth post for today but I wanted to share with you my time spent with friends. I met up with some friends at Red Robin. Red Robin is the place my friends and I go to when we want to meet up and hang out.

My friends and I discussed books we are reading as well as podcast we are listening to. One friend discussed a podcast she is listening to about civics while another friend talked about a book they are reading on the History of Wonder Woman. The book sounds like one that I would enjoy. I discussed the podcast that I am listening to about philosophy.

Discussing such topics with friends is quite helpful for both me and my friends. It is helpful to me and my recovery. It is helpful to me because it helps me not isolate. It is also helpful for me to have stuff to discuss with people.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Blogging Through Shit

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Good Morning, World!!! I am not sure what I am dealing with at the moment. One moment I am struggling and the next, I am okay. Since I am unsure what is going on with me emotionally, I tend to write in moments like this. Writing helps me process whatever the hell is going on. It helps me figure out what is going on.

As I write this post I am just going to write what is going through my head. This might be scary for you all as I am going to be blunt as hell and not hold back. Hell, what I think scares the shit out of me sometimes. The stuff coming out is not the scariest I have thought.

I am slightly worried about money for the month of May. Not as worried as I was in previous post but still worried. I know things will work out when it comes the money situation as I have people who can be of help to be if need be. I just don’t want to have to depend on them.

I wish my neighbor would turn down their stupid television. It is pissing me off and for some fucking reason it is trigger me. Why in the hell is someone’s loud television trigging me? Sounds silly but it is triggering for some odd reason.

I think I am going to read. I love reading and enjoy it immensely. I just don’t understand why it is taking me so long to read this particular book. It is an awesome book and will write a book review on it when I am finally finished with it.

I wonder who actually reads my blog. I mean is it reaching the people I want it to reach. Are people actually reading it or just “liking it” after reading a few sentences? I am trying to figure out why I only have just over three hundred followers after nearly four years of blogging. In fact I wonder if tags work sometimes. I know they must but I just wonder how many people actually go to the tags. I know I do.

I should really be doing chores right now. I need to clean my apartment. I clean my apartment once a week. Or I attempt to clean it once week. Nobody likes having to clean but it is a necessity that is part of being an adult.

I think I am going to go now. Thank you for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Clean apartment
  • Art
  • Workbooks

Monday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Speaking engagement
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Job interview
  • Art
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Workbooks

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Day treatment
  • Art
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Workbooks
  • Baseball game

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Workbook
  • Baseball game

Still Awake in Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just after five thirty in the morning and I still haven’t been to sleep. Yes, I have attempted to get to sleep, I just was unable to do so. I even took my Ambien to be able to sleep and still a no go at the oh so elusive sleep.

Despite getting no sleep I have managed to stay busy. I pretty much stayed busy by reading. Reading appears to be one of my go to activities as of lately. I enjoy reading immensely.

Even though I read most of the night, it still didn’t take my anxiety away a hundred percent. I am worried about money like many people around the world are. I am worried that my tax refund check won’t get here in time to pay the rent. I know I am most likely worried about nothing but I am worried.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep in Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! I am having issues sleeping once again. Which should be no surprise to anyone who reads my blog on the regular basis. Sleep hasn’t come easy for as of lately and it is starting to frustrate the hell out of me.

As frustrating as not being able to sleep is for me, I have come up with creative ways to keep myself busy. One of those ways is looking at potential tattoos I would like to get. For me the tattoos I get represent hope and/or recovery. I want the tattoos I get to not only give me hope and represent recovery but to give others hope as well.

Not only have I been looking at potential tattoos, I have been working on my mindfulness workbook. The chapter I am on is discussing spaciousness, compassion and mindfulness. The part I am having trouble with is having compassion for myself. I can have compassion for others but find it difficult for myself.

I think once I am done blogging I’ll read. I am eager to finish the books I am reading. In fact the book I am reading is a really good book and I am enjoying it immensely.

Thank you for reading. Have good rest of your night. Peace Out, World!!!

SNL + Wonder Woman = Reduced Anxiety

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Hello, World!!! At this moment in time I am watching Saturday Night Live (SNL). For me SNL helps me with my anxiety. Tonight the anxiety is involving money and my taxes. I am worried it is going to get lost in the mail. I should have had it directly deposited into my account but I didn’t.

Besides watching SNL, I plan on reading Wonder Woman comic books. Wonder Woman my be a fictional character but she is a sign of strength for me. She is so much of a symbol of strength for me that I am thinking about getting a Wonder Woman tattoo.

I should get going and watch SNL. Have a great night. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Hello, World!!! If you have been keeping up to date on my blog you know it has been a tough week for me. You also know that I, unfortunately self harmed. A self harm action I will be discussing with my therapist.

Another thing I need to talk to my therapist about is my sleep issues. Sleep issues that has its ups and downs. It just appears it is more down than up because if it was up I think I would be able to sleep.

Something else that happened this week was that I got a phone call. Not just any phone call. A phone call to schedule a job interview. My job interview is scheduled for this Tuesday and I hope it is a job for me.

I also completed three paintings this week. Paintings that helped me express my emotions in a healthy way. One of these days I need to share my paintings with you all. I have shared a painting or two but that is it. I want to share more paintings with you.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Saturday Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I again didn’t get any sleep last night. Having insomnia sucks shit yet I am attempting to look at the silver lining in it. Right now the silver lining is being of support to my best friend who lost her mom yesterday. She leaned on me and another friend of our due to the fact we know what it is like to recently loose someone close.

I also did some reading. Reading has been quite helpful to pass the long nights. It has also been quite entertaining. Being able to read and entertain myself has been a useful tool for me.

Since we are on the topic of reading, I most likely will be reading most of the day as the weather is not exactly nice. It is a typical Seattle weather type of day outside. Having a typical weather day like today is great for me to read and to rest since I didn’t get sleep last night.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Reading Helping Me Through PTSD

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Good Evening, World!!! I am slightly struggling at the moment. I am struggling with some PTSD symptoms. Symptoms that are acting up for some unknown reason at the moment. Symptoms I will be working through.

Besides fighting against PTSD symptoms, I have been attempting to lay low. I am laying low due to the symptoms of PTSD as well as it just one of those days for me.

I’ve been reading most of the day as it appears that it has been quite helpful for me today. It has gotten me out of my head and has helped reduce the PTSD symptoms.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyone Needs A Day Off

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s been a day since I last posted. I didn’t post for no particular reason. Sometimes we just need a day off every once in a while even from blogging. Don’t get me wrong, I love blogging, I just need a day off.

One of the things I did yesterday was nap most of the day. I think it was because I was so tired and catching up on sleep. Not only did I sleep a lot yesterday, I also read. I read Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. I am enjoying the books thus far. Besides reading and napping I worked on two of my workbooks. Workbooks that help me with my recovery.

Having a nice day off from blogging was a good thing. Unfortunately, my best friends mom died today from health complications. She was only in her sixties. She was like a second mom to me. This was the friends mom that helped me convince my grandma to play the flute.  Please keep my friend and her family in your thoughts and send positive vibes their way.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!