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Yesterday Was Not a Good Day

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Good Morning, World or at least it is three twenty one in the morning in Seattle. Yesterday (Tuesday) was not a good day for me. I ended up in the hospital twice in the Emergency Room due to being suicidal. First time I went in it was four something in morning and was discharged. Thankfully I got home just in time for my psychiatric nurse practitioner called me for our phone appointment, She put me on Ativan which was a good thing.

Being home was not a good thing so I called my therapist who is fairly new to me and appears to be a great therapist. I also called one of the supervisors who happens to be my therapist supervisor. I called the both and left them both an email. The supervisor suggested to go back to the hospital so I did. But the first thing I did was have my grandpa and uncle pick up Billie with his supplies to take to grandpa. My uncle and grandpa dropped me back at the same hospital I was earlier.

On that note they had already did shift change and the social worker on duty was surprised to see me as I’m not going to the Emergency Room for mental health in over four years. Partly glad it was her and partly wish she wasn’t her. She pointed out some stuff I needed to hear which let me come back home. I’m glad she helped me make that decision as I fear if I ended back in a psych ward I most likely would have retreated to old behavior.

As of right now I can’t sleep for unknown reasons so I took an Ativan to help with my anxiety since Billie my cat is with my grandpa and uncle. I know Billie is in good hands but I sure do miss the little dude. Well not so little as he is fifteen and a half pounds. He could loos a few pounds just like I do.

I do not have much to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Three O’clock in the Morning Tuesday Chaos

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It is three o’clock in the morning Seattle time and it’s nothing but chaos. First a neighbor starts pulling on the fire alarms in the building which wakes everyone and their pet up. Almost every evacuate. Manly the ones with animals and pets. The Fire Department gets here quickly and turns off quickly.

Sadly, this happened six more times from the same neighbor and all the neighbors are now out of the building and abut to fight the neighbor pulling fire alarms, The cops showed up just in time time or someone would have gotten seriously hurt . The good thing is everyone with a pet or an animal were sticking together because the pet were keeping us calm.

Thank you for listening to me ramble on about building drama. Than you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Haven’t Been Back to Sleep Yet

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Good Sleepy Saturday Morning to you from Seattle. I still haven’t been to sleep since I was rudely awaken by three neighbors in the hallway screaming at each other. Two went to jail for domestic violence while the third when to the hospital tot get psych evolution.

Currently it is peaceful on my floor and Billie my cat is trying to help me write this blog. I think he is trying to tell me we both need more sleep which I agree with his assessment. I love Billie so much how he helps with my anxiety.

As some of you know I have advertisements on my blog. Every time someone clicks on an advertisement, I get a paid few cent per add buy I don’t get paid the money till I hit at least the on hundred mark and then I get the money. I am hoping that you the read look at least one or two adds every time you are reading my blog. I could really use the money now that I’ve been laid off. Every click to an advertisement helps. I’m usually not the one to ask for money and I have June and Julys rent paid for all reading with my apartment management. My bills are covered through July as well. The one thing I will be lacking is food as you can only get certain about of food from the food banks and I am not quite qualified for food stamps. I will try get unemployment and am worried how I can pay for my meds but will try to get stated aid for medical through the state. The is why I am asking that you click on the advertisements to help, pretty please the a cherry on top.

It is now eight o one o’clock in the morning I am I am going to try to get some sleep. Thank you for reading blog. It means a log to me. Peace Our, World!!!

Good Sleep Turned into Not so Good Sleep

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Well, Fucking Good Morning, World!!! I was surprisingly having a good night considering my last official day of work was yesterday (Friday). Considering it was emotional day, I wasn’t expecting a good night sleep till three of my neighbors got in an extremely loud scream match at three thirty in the morning. It almost got physical at one point in time. It is now four forty five in the morning and the Seattle police showed up to the screaming match that was already lasted an hour at four thirty five in the morning Seattle time. Needless to say my neighbors on my floor and myself aren’t exactly happy with the screaming neighbor and the lack of response from the Seattle Police Deportment.

It reality I was hoping my good night sleep wouldn’t have been interrupted due to the fact yesterday (Friday) was my final day at work due to lay offs. A good night sleep for me after a traumatic event of being laid off would have been good for my mental health symptoms. Right now is a time to reflect on a job I loved a sadly got laid off from. A job that turned into a dream job for me.

On the bright spot I have my cat, Billie sleeping with me which is a comfort in itself. Having Billie around going to my therapist has helped me get through the last three months of know I was and now officially laid off.

On the great news front I have three interviews next week. Two of the three sound promising. I am telling future employs that I would need two week in between my end date at my now former employer and starting a new job and everyone appeared to be okay with that considering how traumatizing the lay off process was for everyone involved.

It’s not five o’clock in the morning and the cops are at my door wanting to know what I heard and saw from the screaming neighbors. So, I need to get going. I hope everyone has a good restful weekend and a Happy Saturday. Peace Out, World

Breakfast of Champions for Lunch

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It is now 12:00noon in the afternoon here in Seattle. I finally got food in my stomach. I order McDonalds via Grubhub. My breakfast slash lunch was pancakes, four hash browns and a hot chocolate. Billie my cat wanted me to share be this was a no share meal with Billie the cat.

As I hate my meal Billie laid next to me as I ate and listened to a podcast about Philosophy. In fact I listened to Philosophize This. In fact I’m grateful for this podcast as I am learning lots of information.

I think I need to finish this post as I am about to fall asleep. I hope you hall have great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Sure What Today Hold

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Good Morning, World!!! I didn’t sleep at all last night. It I am not exactly why but it happens especially when one has insomnia. At least I got to spend it with Billie on my lap while I read a Star Wars book most of the night.

As for today, I am not exactly sure what today holds since I didn’t sleep last night especially since it is ten o’clock in the morning; Seattle time. I most likely will end up taking a nap at some point today. When I get no sleep, I become a cranky bucket.

Besides taking a nap I plan on reading a Star Wars book as well as Wonder Woman comic books. It appears that I am back on a reading kick once again. I think it’s partly because I don’t want to deal with the realities of what is going on in the world as well as the fact that I am getting laid of on June 3rd which is this Friday.

Another thing I plan on doing is art. Not sure what type of are and might intertwine genres of art. Of course while doing art I will be listening to music as I create it. Not exactly sure what genre of music but I think it will all depend on the genre of art I choose to do.

I do not have much more to ay in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Munchies

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Good Morning, World!!! It is two nineteen in the morning here is Seattle with my cat Billie laying next me. Honestly, I have the munchies and took too many of two my meds. I took too many to NOT die by suicided but lessen the pain I feel for my client who took their own life. I took the Xanax and Ambien numb myself and hopefully get sleep. Sadly, I can’t sleep and I have a big day ahead of me.

I got the munchies from the meds. I’m eating Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked ice cream as well as some cheese ball ship stuff and Cherry Pepsi. As I a eating I a listening to some music. In fact I feel high with the amount of med I took. No I am NOT suicidal, I jus need to numb myself.

After eating, I will continue to is to music with my cat, Billie by my side as well as do some art. Not sure what type of art but some form of it.

I don’t have a lot more to say expect I’m going to miss my client died by suicide. Thank you all for being there for me and I promise you I won’t do any harm to myself. Peace Out, World!!!!

The Very Little Things I Did Being Home Sick

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Good Evening, World!!! If you read my last post you would know I stayed home sick. I have done very little to day. I did spend a lot of time cuddling with my cat Billie especially when I was reading. I read a few chapter in Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. So far I am enjoying it. I’ve also been reading Wonder Woman comic books.

I’ve been reading when I have not been sleeping. I hope I am able to go to work tomorrow especially since I only have two week left before my lay off date. I really don’t like sleeping during the day because I am afraid I might not sleep at night.

I don’t have anything else to say except I need to eat dinner and then cuddle with my cat Billie again. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a rambling of a post

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Happy Friday, Everyone. Well at least it is still is here in Seattle for another few minutes. My depression is action up and at least I know my meds are work for my depression. I just need to use the skills in my tool box and WRAP plan the help lessen the depression. In fact Billie, my cat is helping with my depression.

Sadly, depression is increasing my self harm urges is why I am focusing on my self care plan. My self-care play is to continue to listen to music and do art. Also I will be going to a street fair tomorrow (Saturday). The last time this street fair happened was in 2019 and was cancelled in 2020 and 2021 due to Covid019. I’m looking forward to attending.

As far as my self harm urges, I plan on working on my skills to keep myself sane. Of course Billie will be a big help with that.

I don’t have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out!!!

I’m Bored so I’m Blogging

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Good Morning, World, once again. It’ just barely after seven in the morning here in Seattle and I am bored half out of my mind so I’m blogging. I’ve been awake since around three this morning. I haven’t been back to sleep so I’ve been doing some minor household chores like cleaning out Billie’s litter box, taking out the trash and sorting out what laundry needs to be done first later today. I’m not about to start a load of laundry now just in case I am able to get some sleep.

Since I have some minor household chores done and the weekend morning news is on, I decided to turn it on. I quickly regretted it as it’s depressing as hell yet I still have it on. Maybe I am keeping it on out boredom. I don’t know.

All I know is my cat Billie Dean, is laying on my lap purring up a storm and appears to be a happy clam with all the lap time he has been getting this morning. Hell, all his lap time this morning has been helpful for me. Billie is an amazing kitty and I love him so very much.

I do not have much to say in this particular blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. it really means a great deal to me that you read my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday as well as a great weekend. Just know you are all awesome and I appreciate you all. Peace Out, World!!!