Lonely & Depressed

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Good Evening, World!!! Valentines Day is a week and a half a way. I have never been a give fan of Valentines Day for various reasons in my life. One reason is why do we need a special day to tell people that we love them when can do that every day.

To make Valentines Day worse for me is that my grandma past away on Valentines day of 2018. This year will mark four years since she passed a way and I miss her greatly. She was the one I went to when I was lonely and depressed. I miss her so very much.

I am needing to end this particular blog post as it is making me sad and missing my grandma greatly. I love her so much and which I could give her one last hug. Peace Out, World!!

Having a Tough Day at Work

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am currently having a tough day a work. Part of it is because I didn’t get much sleep last night due various reasons which included my neighbors being dickwads during a time where most people actually sleep or at least try to sleep.

Today is just one of them days. I have two clients schedule which I had a session with one of them already and will see my next one at 2:00pm; Seattle time. Today has been primarily being in meetings all day as well as dealing with clients in crisis as I am apart of the Thursday crisis coverage team.

Anyway, some of the crisis calls I have taken today have been triggering for me. I think it is partly due to the lack of sleep last night. Anyway, I am grateful for my colleagues as I have been able to do check-in’s with a couple of them after a couple of rough crisis calls from clients.

I have amazing colleagues and an awesome supervisor. I love my employer and feel supported by everyone including the leadership team. Having an awesome employer and colleagues is super helpful everyday especially and challenging days like today.

And of course I am working from home today so I can’t forget to mention how supportive of a colleague my cat Billie Dean has been today. I know for fact he knows I am needing the extra cuddles and love he is giving me. Animals including my cat, Billie have unconditional love especially for their humans.

I do not have much more to say in in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Apparently, Not Going Back to Sleep Tonight

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Good Fucking, Morning, World!!! This is most likely be a rant of a post. It is 6:03am in the morning here in Seattle. I am one angry person who is now a fucking a cranky bucket and now I have to be up to start getting ready for work. Work that I love to do but challenging on a good day and even more challenging when you are a cranky bucket.

I swear my neighbors don’t get it or understand that arguing and physically fighting is not a good thing any time of the day especially in the middle of the night. Then there is the idiot neighbor who has pulled the fire alarm so many times it’s not funny and very angering on my part as well as other neighbors me angry. The Seattle Fire Department and the Seattle Police Department are doing shit about the dude pulling the fire alarm. All I want it fucking sleep so I can be the best I can be for the best I can be for the client a serve at work.

I really don’t want to be cranky at work especially working really to not be one when I am in sessions with clients. My clients tend to understand which is a good thing. Now that I have to be up to get ready for work, it is time for morning meditation mindfulness practice with a nice cup of tea.

Well, I don’t have much more to say expect for thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my heart. Here is to a day that I hope to not be a cranky bucket. Peace Out, World!!!

Phuck Getting Sleep Tonight

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Good Morning, World!!! Apparently it appears I am not getting a good night sleep tonight because I have neighbors that a physically fighting on my hallway floor. On top of that other neighbors are pulling the building the fire alarm. I am tired and tired has phucking hell. All the shit that is happening is trigging my PTSD. I am tired as hell and a phucking cranky buck it. I just wish Seattle Housing Authority (SHA), The Seattle Fire Department as well as the Seattle Police would do something. People do need to work and being a cranky bucket is not a way to start the day.

I don’t have much to say. Thank you for listening to my rants especially about my neighbors.

Another Sleepless in Seattle type of Night due to Annoying Neighbors

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Good Fucking Morning, World!!! It is currently 3:11am in the morning here is Seattle. My neighbors are at it again with the screaming in the hall way on my floor that tends to be come to a physical fight between the two neighbors. Sadly, the Seattle Police Department isn’t doing shit and this is happening in the middle of the night. Seattle Police tell me it’s an apartment issue when Seattle Housing Authority is telling us its a police issue. So, myself and my neighbors are getting the fucking run around.

Not being able to get a decent nights sleep effects my work and how I am able to focus on my job at hand. I really need to have a good night sleep to be able to do my job the best can. My clients depend on me not being a cranky bucket. I don’t like being a cranky bucket.

The fights and arguments amongst my neighbors are causing me some anger and that is not a good thing. Anger that nobody is doing anything about it. My cat is helping me with my anger which is a good thing.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading y blog, I would net be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Update on 2022 Goals (Part Two)

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Good Evening, World!!! I just wanted to update you on my 2022 New Year’s goals. First and fore most, I started walking on the regular basis as part of my goals for the year and realize it can change but I feel like it is a good way to start the day.

As for as work, I am continuing to work which is quite helpful. I am also going to start volunteering at PAWS Cat City after taking time off from volunteering due to having Covid-19. I am looking forward to volunteering again with cat.

As fart as my art goal with coloring, I have been setting time to coloring for at least thirty minutes a day. It helps me get in a good head space just like doing a daily walk. My goal is to have my coloring time increase to an hour a day by the end of this year just like I hope to walk an hour a day by the end of 2022.

Of course I am dealing well with my reading goal and reading a chapter or two a day. I am really enjoying the book I am reading and hope to give some update about it.

As far as my mindfulness meditation practice on a daily basis it helping me a great deal with starting my day as as well as ending my day. I’m thrilled on how helpful mindfulness meditation is quite helpful for me.

As far as the the tarot cards as well the tarot card journal, I am reading up on tarot reading to make sure I am doing it right and this might take longer than expected but I am hoping that I schedule the learning part into my daily activities as I want to accomplish most of my goals this year. I know some might not be accomplished by the end of 2022 but I will continue to work on them into 2023.

I do have more goals to share with you and will continue to update you on them at least once a week even thought I hope to update more often like twice to three times a week. I just want to make sure I am held I am help accountable by you my reader.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a great weakened and Peace Out, World!!!

UGH!!! Another Sleepless Night in Seattle

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It’s not a good start to a Tuesday morning in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I was sound asleep and sleeping quite soundly when two neighbors who live on my floor in different units decided to scream at each other that led into to a physical fight. Needless to say the cops came and “talked” with the neighbors yet didn’t do anything else but talk with them. This angers me and my other neighbors because it triggers our PTSD, Depression and Anxiety. Obviously, Seattle police to get a flying rats ass. All my neighbors and myself want is a decent night of sleep. The cops are not doing their fucking job and a I pay taxes which means I pay their pay check. I am not a happy camper with the Seattle Police Department.

As least my cant Billie Dean is able to help decrease the anger, PSTD, Anxiety and Depression. Billie is a great source of help for me and am beyond grateful for him. I love my cuddle but of a cat. He means the world to me.

I am to tired and angry to finish this blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. Have a great night of sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

A Late Post about New Years Goals for 2022 Part One

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Good Evening, World!!! I know it’s the last day of January and many people have already discussed and started their new years goals. Some even failed at them already which is something that many people do including myself.

I have many goals for the year 2022 and realize that my goals can change for whatever reason and I am okay with that. So, as of right now one of my new years gIoals for 2022 is to learn to read tarot cards. This is to help me direct what my day will be like and focus on what I need to focus on for the day. I first need to first read and learn about it before doing readings on myself and hopefully others. I also have a tarot journal to document what my reading informed me for the day. The cool thing is that the first and only tarot card set is cats. It is my hope that as I learn about tarot as well as use my tarot journal that I will document here on my blog post.

Of course another another way for me to stay connected to the world as well as my self is to restart both mindfulness and meditation practices. I say this because when I started this last year that last one hundred days it helped a great deal with with not just my mental health symptoms but my everyday life like going to work and volunteering. I ended up having more focus on what I needed to do. I am also plan on focusing on journaling before and after a mindfulness and/or mindfulness practice so I can see any improvement in life including my recovery as well as my work and volunteer job.

Speaking of work and volunteering, I plan on continuing on doing both. I don’t see any changes in work or volunteering as I love doing both, I according to those in charge I am doing a “great job and always willing to learn.

As fart as my cat Billie Dean, I will continue to take care of him and most importantly, love him with all my heart. He is a sweet love bug of a cat that is such a cuddle bug. I love my cat so much. I don’t know how lucky I got with Billie choosing me to adopt him.

Of course I have other goals for the new year. On of which is to read. Specifically, read books that I have been meaning to read for years. It is my plant to read six books this year in 2022. To me this seems like a realistic goal I can accomplish when it comes to reading.

Another go I have for this year is to do some art work. My plan is to color two coloring pages as well as paint at least one painting. I feel like this is a realistic goal. I am looking forward to this goal as well as well as my other goals.

I do have have other goals in which I will share in another post within the next couple of days. I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciation from my end of things that you the reader read m blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a good night sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

Fell Asleep Reading a Good Book

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Good Evening, World from my neck of the world known as Seattle. I was finally getting into the book I am reading known as ” The Ship of Magic” by Robin Hobb. Sadly, I feel asleep reading. Not because it is boring as it is not boring. I just needed to sleep. I hope to be able to take a another nap an read again to report how good the boo is so far. So far from what I have read it has been awesome reading.

So, my plan is to take a couple of hour nap so I can be able to read “The Ship of Magic” Robin Hobb. I hope to give our some updates about the book which means spoil alerts.

I’m going to get going so I can get some sleep to update on the book I am reading. Thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me that you read my blog. Peace Out, World!!! I hope hope to update you later this evening or tonight. Peace Out, World!!!

Mental Health Days Off from Work Suck

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Good Afternoon, World!!! As I mentioned in last post, I am taking today off from work. I am need of a mental health day off from work. I was going to listen to a podcast as I did some art work by coloring however I got the urge to read.

So, I decided to pick up the book called “Ship of Magic” by Robbin Hobb. I’ve started this book many times and sadly never got through it even though it is great read from what I have read from it. Plus, it is the first book of a trilogy which I am a big fan of book series. I am grateful that she is an awesome author and is local. She lives in Tacoma or least that is what I last heard.

Not only that, it is easier to read with a cat in your lap than trying to do art work when a cat wants to “help” with the artwork. I love Reading and hope to give a report on the book throughout the time I read Ship of Magic.

Reading and having my cat by my side it a great way to do self care especially when you are are taking a mental health day off from work. I am grateful for my employ that they encourages their employee’s to take time of for being sick. I love my job and my employer.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to than you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you are reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading blog. I greatly appreciate you the reader. Have a great work week a head of you. Peace Out, World!!!