Tag Archives: Therapy

Bored Half Out of My Mind, Waiting

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am bored have out of my mind as my therapist wants me to hang out in day treatment. He wants me to hang out in drop in as he converses with his supervisor on whether or not I need to be hospitalized for my self harm actions. I don’t think I need to be hospitalized as I was recently in the hospital. He doesn’t think I need to be hospitalized either but since he is relatively new he wants to make sure he is doing what he is best for me.

I think after I am done blogging, I’ll read. I am realizing that reading is helping with pain management  of my hand. Reading has been quite helpful for me in a number of areas for me. I am grateful that I have overcome the issues I had with reading when I was a child as I love reading.

I think I am going to go now as my hand is in pain. I’ll post more about my hand later. Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

An Emergency Room (E.R) Post

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Good Morning, World!!! As I type this post, I am sitting in the emergency room (E.R) in pain and typing with one hand as I hit a brick wall. I hit a brick wall because I was feeling high anxiety as well as fear. I was feeling his way because of PTSD symptoms. PTSD symptoms that were and are quite overwhelming.

Symptoms that I will be discussing with my therapist today when I see him. I’ll also be discussing my self harm actions. Actions that need to be discussed as I didn’t reach out to anybody when I first had urges to self harm this morning.

I did attempt to use my DBT skills. First of all I blogged. After posting my last post I ended up reading my book. Both blogging and reading helped but I obviously needed to reach out to somebody and/or needed to use more skills so I wouldn’t have punched a brick wall.

I should get going as I am in the emergency room getting my hand looked at. I’ll post again later. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! I am at a loss on what to say right now even though I have a lot on my mind. A lot on my mind because of everything that happened this past week. Not that any of it was bad. Just a lot happened.

Tuesday, I met with my therapist for our first one on one session. My new therapist appears to be cool. He is recovery minded and is in line with what I want to accomplish in regards to my recovery.

Wednesday, I had my job interview that went okay. In all honesty I won’t be let down if I don’t get the job as I don’t think the job would be a good fit for me to begin with.

Thursday, I met with my new psychiatric nurse practitioner. She appears to be cool. She took me off of the Seroquel as I am on Abilify now. I’m just having even more trouble sleeping now.

I also got my taxes done on Thursday. I am getting more money back than I expected and am thrilled about that. Now I can pay a good portion of my credit card off.

That’s pretty much what I did this week. I mean my depression has been acting up and it sucks shit but all I can do is accept reality and push through it. It’s the only thing I can do right now. I can not let it get to me at the moment as if I do then shit can hit the fan quite quickly.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

An Idea or Two About Structure

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Hello, World!!! I was doing a mindfulness exercise and realized that if helps me in the late evening then it will help me in the morning as well. So, I think I am going to start my day with a mindfulness exercise or least do it pretty early on to the start of my day. As I was thinking about this I remember the conversation I had with my therapist during our session yesterday about how I do better with structure.

After thinking about the conversation I had yesterday, I pulled out my calendar and started penciling in things that I would like the do and things I need to. I plan on filling out next week and show it to my new therapist.

Mindfulness is one of the things I plan on doing both during the morning and late evening. I also plan on continuing drinking tea while reading the news paper in the morning. Another thing I want to do on the more regular basis is to do my workbooks. I feel like if I do this it will help me help myself and get to where I want in my recovery. I also hope to discuss my work in the workbooks with my therapist. These are just a few ideas I would like to do to build some structure in my life.

Thank you for reading about my ideas. Peace Out, World.

First Session With New Clinician

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I met with my new clinician today. He is my case manager but we are going to be do therapy work so he is more like a therapist for me. We discussed quite a lot today and my anxiety was put at ease.

One of the main topics we discussed was boundaries. Boundaries about our therapeutic relationship. He appears to have good boundaries.

We also discussed our expectations of the relationship and what I want to work on. He appears to be on the same page as me regarding expectations and my recovery plan. My new therapist is on board with my recovery as well as the recovery movement.

I think I’m going to like this new therapist as he is proving himself already. He is encouraging me to build more structure in my life. He thinks I need more recreation in my life which is true.

Thank you so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Cross Stitch
  • Color
  • Basically be lazy all day

Monday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art Group

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Therapy /Case management

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Not quite sure quite yet

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • See Psych ARNP
  • Clean Apartment

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Again, another day with nothing really planned

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Cross Stitch
  • Be lazy

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! Right now I should be volunteering however I am still dealing with the grief of loosing my grandma. I miss her very much.

Besides dealing with grief all week, I’ve been busy. Busy doing attempting to be a productive individual in society. Society that expect me to be doing well but I am not or least not where I want to be.

The week started out with me meeting with Gilbert (now old therapist), my now old case manager and my new clinician. It was interesting. Interesting in the fact I am not sure how this is going to play out for me therapeutically.

I have also been reading my book off and on this week and am grateful to have the time to read. I am enjoying the book I am reading.

Most importantly I am starting up cross stitching again. It is helping me with my depression symptoms. Cross stitching and reading is something I have been doing most of the day as it’s even too rainy for us Seattleites.

Now I am going to watch movies from my childhood and binge eat on stack food. Thank you for reading. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!

Rambling About Recovery

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Good Morning, World!!! It appears that my new clinician cares. He called me yesterday to do a “check-in” and to inform me of some idea’s he has about my treatment.  The one obvious one is having a face to face, one hour, weekly appointment with him. He read some of my chart and realize that weekends are difficult for me. It is because of him figuring thing out he wants to do Friday and Monday check-ins with me. He is just attempting to be a preventative measure at the moment. Something I think is a great idea.

Another idea my new clinician threw out there was to discuss the workbooks I am doing. He likes the idea that I am doing workbooks to help my recovery along. He thinks it would be beneficial to discuss with him what I have done throughout the week with the workbooks. I like this idea and am willing to do this as it could be beneficial for me.

Speaking of recovery, I am think I should end this post for now and work on a workbook. Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World

Woe-Is-Me Moment

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Good Morning, World!!! I’m having a woe-is-me moment. I am having a moment due to the fact I have been out of work for a year. I’ve been out of work because I resigned from my much loved career due to the fact my symptoms were acting up. Unfortunately, it appears that this is my new baseline however I AM NOT going to allow it to be my new baseline.

I miss working. Hell, I wish I was in a spot where I could work even if it part time. I loved working as Peer Specialist (Counselor). I know I’m meant to be working in the mental health field for the rest of my career.

I am also having a woe-is-me moment because of me having a new clinician. Or at least having a moment because of something that is beyond his control. Something he may not even be aware of yet. His voicemail is not set up yet. Hell, it’s his extension that is not set up either. I’m suppose to have a check-in with him today. Hope that will happen but can’t worry about it right now.

This moment is brought to you by the letters F-U-C-K. Have a great day everyone. I know my day can only get better. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Boring Post About Nothing

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Good Morning, World!!! I have been thinking about something and yes I know that is a scary thought. In fact the thing I have been thinking about is annoying the hell of me. The thing that is annoying me is that when I met with my new clinician yesterday he didn’t know his extension. I’m NOT annoyed with him because it was his first day but I am annoyed with myself for letting it get to me that he doesn’t know his extension.

I may be annoyed over something so minor or something what I consider minor however I am grateful that my new clinician is a Social Worker. Nothing against those who have a LMHC licensure, I just prefer dealing with Social Workers as they get a broader view of working with various individuals in many different aspects of life.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!